Middel of June.....

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I finished the Little girl for Richard Kennair's foundation.
Richard wants to market her...limited prints......cards.....etc..for his foundation.
I am glad to participate as little or as much as I can.
http://www.kennair.org

I am almost pleased with the overall painting.
There are things that are bugging me......but then..it is my first Portrait.

My BF......had a '' fit '' last night when I said it would be donated.
He reminded me of what happened some years ago..and the lost of 29 paintings.
He also told me to stop....giving away my art.....and personal belongings.
But that is the way I am.......if I have one $..and someone asks for it..well..I give it.
...............Maybe I am not normal.
I guess I do disturb my family with this...as I always end up debating with myself and others about my beliefs and actions.
I do admit...on one or two occasions...people laughed at me....:(

I am not painting today.....I need a break.
After doing the ''portrait ''.......I can see that in one 1/2 month I have gotten some painting skills back.
I will be doing some sketches...for some new paintings.
5 years ago..after my stoke....I really thought my skills would not come back, even though I tried and tried.I guess the part of my brain that was damaged........made another part of my brain to adapt and developed well enough to get where I am today. The human body is just awesome !


I have to find a way to sell myself...and my art. Maybe I will never become a professional artist.....and I do not want to think so..as I do not want to discourage myself.
I am not going to obsess over this..and make it a full time struggle.
One step at a time...haste makes waste.
Art is a lifelong uphill ride, with pebbles and rocks on the path. You have to go though this rocky road, it is part of the path.If you fly over it....you lost seeing and experiencing some of the road.

I was laughed at last week and blocked........without a chance to defend myself......something I said here on my blog...and this person took it personally.(.funny..... it was about some people in my home town........).
This person has one BIG mask....so sweet on the web....to all......gives out an image of perfection........but it's all about selling......promotional....and is in search for attention.....and uses the '' victim '' strategy.Get over it.....we all have problems in life.
Wrong attitude ! Anyways..I do not need hypocritical behavior like this in my life.


I not very good with words....sometimes I freeze up when people ask...about me.......
That is why I postponed the art Gallery exposition in October in Quebec City. ( for a second time )
What am I going to say...to people at the exposition ?
Maybe I need an agent....oh......forget that.........lol...bad experience here...


*sigh*.....:)
Well I will be painting till my funds run out. Anyways........it is my passion....and I am not looking for notoriety.
The paints are running low...I have Rheumatoid arthritis in my right thumb..and forefinger..so it is painful to paint. Writing ( with a pen ) is almost impossible...sketching is hard....but heyyyyy.....that's part of growing old.....and it is part of my ''rocky '' road.


But life is good...and I am content with what I have right now...and making people happy.and smile.is a big part of me.