2 new post cards for sale.

I will receive them tomorrow......or Monday . :)

you can order some here :

http://www.lucietheroux.com/page28.html

This ( if I sell some ) will help pay my internet bill.

I have not been working as much as I thought this month.

I made a bit less than 400 $

Half of this went towards the vets bill for Inka.

I am so tired of struggling to get funds...to..... eat.....pay my bills...ect.

Last month my income was less than someone on welfare. ( a bit under 600 $ )

Not whining..but I am discouraged a lot.

If this does not change financially.....I will go to the pawn shop with what is left of my jewelry and my cam.

Along with some things I do not use anymore.

I just need a door so I can put my foot in..and pull it open........

The question is where is the door ?

Anyways........

The shipping is free for the postcards..and you can combine 6 different ones......

Have a good day

fishing........ah!

Well...after debating if I was going to go fishing...I am more than glad I did !

What a thrill !

Beautiful scenery..peace & quiet.

The first morning.we got up at 3am....I started to make breakfast...on the propane stove.

Looked for the pots & pans ( I should of looked the night before ).......got the bacon going....the eggs....heated up the beans...then.....the darn smoke detector took off !

I found the off button...but gezz..at 3 am ?...I must of woke up all the other cabins.......

Continued cooking.( half woken up )

Made the coffee..then the toasts...then the darn thing sounded off AGAIN !

This time..I stepped in a mouse trap....the thing triggered shut on my small toe !

Now I was swearing..getting the trap off....watching the eggs...and finding the off button for the smoke alarm....

My Boy friend was between laughing.......and and watching me running around....with his mouth opened.

Well.......That woke me up. !

The 4 days went too fast....

I needed this....

Somehow this rejuvenated my spirit....and soul.

I still have all the wonderful scenery in my mind..........the 3 Moose we saw...the Loons on the lake..the birds......the smells........

Solititude

It's been almost 2 months since my last blog post.

I have lived ups and downs.......and must admit ...and an attempted suicide.

I am not dramatizing this.....but it has helped me to fight for life.

I am still psychologically week.........very...........but I accepted the fishing trip my boyfriend has been insisting to go.

3 days......up Quebec North......4 hours from us....then another 2 in the wilderness.

Just being out of the City sounds......and hearing nothing..or almost...will do wonders for me.

I said yes this morning.

I had an idea.......for a painting....and yes I will paint this..when I get back from fishing......

Solitude..........I only cropped a part of what is my mind........if all goes well.......I should show it to you in 2-3 weeks....

It is hard for me to re-start painting.....but I admit........it is part of me.......like an organ.

2 weeks.......see you then....

Sale

I am doing a final sale of the last of my paintings.

Any offer will be seriously taken into consideration.

Sale only in Canada, sorry.

Unless you want to pay extra for the shipping.

Since theses will go at a VERY low price..I can not afford to pay for the shipping also.

Click on the photos for a ''larger ''view.

This one..is called ''a safe landing ''

24 x 40 inches

The one above is 30 x 30 inches....and is painted on a gallery canvas 1 1/2 inch thick

20 x 20 inches

*** sold ***

30 x 60 inches

Koi pond 1

This 12 x 36.........3 Zebras in field

*** sold ***

24 x 48 inches

9 Zebras ( sunset accents )

Filled with passion....24 x 24

Fell free to contact me for more information.......

bigcats@videotron.ca

Thank you !

very close to home.

Click the news paper page for a larger view.

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After seeing a Television program Sunday the 11th Of April....this brought up lots of painful memories.

The program interviews celebrity's.ect...

The man interviewed was Claude Robinson...an Artist.

Claude Robinson is a citizen of Quebec, a creator and an illustrator, who has been fighting alone, for 15 years, against unscrupulous multinationals from the movie and television industry who stole and exploited his work.

you can read more about him & his battle.

http://en.clauderobinson.org/

one citation that struck me........well lets say 2....

1:

“I was lucky to be born with a talent: drawing and creating. I earned my living by creating. For me, creating is a delight. It’s what’s always defined me. […] Now, I hate my talent. If I hadn’t created my cartoon character, I wouldn’t have had to live what I’ve lived.”

2 : As a creator, you’re responsible for what you’ve created, but you must protect and defend your creation, otherwise you betray your work and yourself.

- Claude Robinson

I have been down-siding to a depression.....

I was wondering why.....

Why ?

Well....in the past my art was stolen. ( read the newspaper page )

And last December..another time. ( maybe even before...as I found this surfing the web )

A printing and greeting card company was producing illegaly MY art and selling them.!!!

...ok...take them to court ?

I wish I had the strength right now....

All I know is that I want to get rid of my art.

I understand Claude when he says '' I hate my art ....''

It is a strong statement...but somehow it has a truthful side.

I did sell a couple...and if ANY strength comes back...I will gather my courage to bring them to court.

This money was put aside for this reason...for the future.

Citation 2........That was said by Claude......woke me up.

It is true to fight for your artistic integrity......big or small it might be.

Should I give up ?

Despite my dedication I am getting nowhere trying to interest any provincial gallery, let alone a Quebec City one.

I am spending a LOT on promotions, exposure, and in vain.

Most of my part-time hard job money goes to this..leaving me with almost nothing for art supplies.......and let alone any luxury.

I do sell a few things, mainly through friends, and to new customers, ( on the web ) but not in a consistent way.

In the last month, I had 4 people interested ( and I mean REALLY interested ) in buying some art.

They all backed out, leaving me heart broken almost seeing the money fly away.

Am I really a bad painter and should I give up?

I was told by 4 Art Galleries, animal art does not sell in Quebec ( the whole Provence )....unless I had a solid art formation.

Being self-taught , and having almost nothing on an art resumé, does not help.

4 or 5 years ago...I did apply to University Laval, ( art degree courses ).....I was accepted..but I didn't realize just how much money this would cost.

I do call every year or so, just to find out if I am still a worthy candidate student.

I am.

So frustrating not to have the funds.

This week I will call a Government organisation to see if they will help me out.

I had a bad work accident back in 1999.....and I have a compensation for this ( handicap ) till I am 65.

The compensation is about the price of my apartment lease. ( at least this gets payed )

I still have the courage to work......to pursue my dream, even though doing upholstery....is really taking out a physical toll on me.

Yes....... I was one of the first ladies in Quebec City doing this hard trade.

This may sound cruel and simplistic, but to get a decent ride on the train of joy, many artists need to spend more time shovelling coal.

Am I part of theses ?............it seems so.

Maybe they ( Government ) can help me recycle to being a full time artist ?

I think I have the talent....or do I?

'Never give up' in the words of Winston Churchill are very important words that motivate and keep a body and soul together. It is hard these days to be an artist.

Failing is not a disgrace.

................or is it ?

*sigh *

Well after being laid off for 2 months .......This week my boss re-called me to go back to work.

yay!............( I thought )

Wensday....went in to work........feeling so happy.

This meant money to buy art supplies and to survive.

Yesterday after dinner...he thanked me.......but said the '' contract '' that was supposed to come in..... didn't.

He told me he didn't know when he would call me again.

We had a conversation about this off-and-on thing last Tuesday.

I told him I could not ''live '' on a 2 day a week salary.....and that I would be looking for another job.

Well,.he told me......wait !.......I want you to paint me an Elephant.....or maybe an African scene.

WOW........:)............OK.......ummmmmm...can you give me a deposit ? I asked ....

'' Sure we will talk about this week at work.''

Yesterday after he told me he didn't know when I would be called back...I told him, now is the time for me to talk about the painting you wanted, and I could do it while I am on standby.

Well..the answer was not what I expected.

his answer : '' I do not have the time for this..I will think about it. ''

I asked him what this meant.....no answer.

All he wanted was me to come in for 2 days and do a ''rush '' job.

How could I be so naive !!....again !

A painting that I though would be sold overseas... didn't sell after all.

A series of complications came up.

I did my best to find a way.as I always do.......I pride myself in an better than '' excellent '' shipping for what I call my '' babies ''...even some times paying 100 % of the shipping. etc.

The client sent me a gift , for my troubles.

This brought tears to my eyes.

How sweet.........and considerate !

I am taking a couple of days to collect my thoughts.....and wipe my tears.