Giraffe

                                               Finished 17th March 2012
                                                      Available for sale :)
                                                       20 x 36 inches.

trying to keep my head up

I admit I am getting a bit discouraged.

Although I am trying very hard to keep painting and promoting myself on a 580 $ monthly income...this is getting all the energy I have left out of me.

I try to push the doors open...only to get them slammed in my face.

Why is it when you are down......people ( unconsciously ) make it worst.?

What I mean by down.....I mean that you are struggling...for everyday things...paying for food, your rent....and if there is something left over...art supplies.

I did my taxes this week and to my astonishment I owe 100 $ for a new Quebec tax ( mandatory ) for Health.

Gezzzz.....I gained 7,500 $ this year ( workman's compensation, that is supposed to be non taxable ).......100 $ is not a lot your thinking.......but to me this was sort of driving the nail in more.

I still give for causes that are close to my heart.....it is in me....a 20$ or 10$ will not disrupt my life at this point.I just chose more carefully.

I rather give painting to causes....part of myself is in there...money is just money...but ART stays and maybe will bring some joy for years to someone.

I try to keep positive...but I guess my inner feelings must transpire out to people......so I do not go out anymore.

I have been invited to sevral symposiums....and expositions. It is very flattering....but THESE all charge you money. Anywhere from 40 $ to 200$.and they are all over the Provence.

I do not have a car....nor the funds to stay over the weekend paying a hotel room..picking up my stand each nigh by foot.

If you turn down these invitations..they treat you like you are not serious about your art...so the next time around..you get left out.

I know I am NOT the only artist in this situation. I think the world has lost many talented artists that pursued their passion to the end of financial rupture. Only now , can I start to feel the emotional death of an inner passion.

I am now pushing to the limit the promotion part, with the help of a press agent ( a 10 year friendship with this person ) who, for now is not charging me anything.

This sounds allover discouraging...maybe yes.....maybe no.

Is there a lesson or reason I am living this ? Maybe yes....maybe no.

I am still keeping my head up..and will continue to nurture my passion .

the Sentinels

18 x 36 inch painting finished the 2nd February.

Male cubs stay together for the rest of their lives, forming a coalition. Male coalitions is beneficial in helping to acquire and to hold territories against rival male cheetahs. They also hunt together..... therefore, I called this painting The Sentinels.

It is available for sale.

Here is the work in progress.

Dernière tentative.........avec la CSST.

Dernière tentative.........avec la CSST.
RDZ Avec étude faite cette fois ci par un Professionnelle accrédité. Le 13 Janvier 2012


Demande de subvention, pour un projet selon ( Art:178 de la LATMP )
178. La Commission peut octroyer une subvention, n'excédant pas le maximum annuel assurable établi en vertu de l'article 66, à un travailleur victime d'une lésion professionnelle qui élabore un projet visant à créer et gérer une entreprise qui constitue pour lui un emploi convenable, si ce travailleur demeure incapable d'exercer son emploi en raison de sa lésion.

Ce projet doit être accompagné d'une étude, dont la forme et la teneur sont conformes à ce que la Commission exige, qui conclut à la faisabilité de l'entreprise projetée et à sa rentabilité à moyen terme et le travailleur doit démontrer sa capacité d'exploiter cette entreprise.

Si le projet est accepté, la Commission rembourse au travailleur les frais qu'il a faits pour obtenir cette étude de faisabilité.



1er refus due a une étude de faisabilité manquante l’or de la présentation du Projet. Le 13 Mai.
2ieme Refus ( révision administrative ) même raison..le 10 Octobre

Donc...je re-dépose le projet avec une étude.

La CSST ne croit pas que la subvention de 4000 $ ( qui en faite en en dessous du montant a quoi j,aurait droit......soit 7000 $ ) est réalisable pour crée mon propre emploi comme artiste et vendeuse ( de mes œuvres )??? Par contre en 2000..avec le même montant ( de 4000 $ ) j'ai génère un totale de 29 œuvres , donc la valeur était de 30,000 et plus.

Depuis plus de 10 ans que je me défonce pour réalisé ce projet, malgré des difficultés financiers..victime de vol de 30,000 $ des mes œuvres....


http://www.lucietheroux.com/image/article_Lucie.jpg

…...pigé a même les revenues de IRR de La Commission.
Malgré tout ceci...je suis encore habité par la passion et l'amour de peindre.
Site web, publications, auto-promotions, contacts,expositions ,ne font que la moité de mon acharnement pour être enfin autonome après mon accident...en respectant mes limitations.

Si........la Commission n'accepte PAS l’étude.......je suis sure que la personne qui a travaillé sur l'étude.. vas rendre cela publique.( Question de démontré le refus systématique des demandes a la CSST )

Pour toute mes demandes ( avec preuves de spécialiste médicaux ) j,ai abandonné....a cause des refus a répétitions. A quoi BON! Je vais vivre avec mes limitations et atteintes permanents en silence.
Pour ma part....j'ai reçu un don ( d'une dame en Alberta ) pour peindre quelques toiles....dernier souffle avant d'éteindre a jamais ma passion.
Une partie de moi vas mourir en même temps..privé de ma passion.....car je ne peut plus continué de peindre avec 580 $ par mois.

580 $ par mois.......j'usqua 65.ans......

Birds :)

I have been painting small canvas for the preparation of the Grouped Exposition the 8th of December. We will be 8 Artists in all.

The one I uploaded is called '' Colocs de Limoilou. ''

I am already sketching out my next one..A giraffe.....I have a 12 x 24 canvas left over..and a larger one....I will see which one I will take. The '' space '' I have for the exposition is small...so I will be very limited as to what will be hung up.

About the painting above.....

I live just beside a Church......and there are a lot of Crows in the bell tower. I have always wanted to paint them. The balcony ramp is mine.( the building was built in the 1940's , and there was a Skate factory here.and the contractors recuperated the ''scraps '' of the blades to use as ornaments for the apartment buildings where I live)...I sort of sketched my view of what I see at 4-5 am.but can not get on cam.

19.33 $ a day

Well after 10 years and more of combating the CSST. ( The Commission de la santé et de la sécurité du travail ) Which is actually a workman's Government based, compensation insurance.

I have finally given up.

Even if after all the specialists I have seen, and that they ALL agree my shoulder's condition has worsened..and that the mobility is less than 80 % than normal. They decide ( the commission's doctors ) without even seeing me for a consultation., that is age related ?..and NOT due to a double fracture of the head of the humerus.

There had been 9 years of complications due to that...( inflammations of the rotator cuff, chronictendinitis, pinching of the axillary nerve, ect..) I accepted this condition.and pain.

BUT Now there is another condition : Shoulder Osteoarthritis.This is very rare..and it is caused by a trauma to the shoulder., and repeated inflammatory conditions..

It is now affecting the 2 joints of my shoulder.The Hawkins and Neer tests were positive also the Speed and Yergason tests.

Now.......I can tell you it is very painful.even at night. Lifting the arm overhead commonly produces pain (for example, putting the dishes in the cupboards).I also have a hard time to wash my hair.. untie my Bra,,,Drive a car..,,ect....sometimes it is impossible.I will NOT give you the long list of things I can no longer do.

Even after all the x-rays.bone scans.to show the damage, the CSST refused to accept my worsened condition. I had done everything.......( and the specialists ) to prove my condition.

Oh..they did accept a % of lost habitability..( 8 years ago )...and permenant damage...... But they refuse this last one.......

Why ?

Because this would be too expensive to admit my condition.

And accepting my condition would create a JURISPRUDENCE.and open a chance to other injured

workers that are combating for justice.

Can't have that....right ?

So I will continue to '' survive '' on the 580 $ a MONTH compensation that they generously give me to shut up ! That is 19.33 $ a day to live on........

It is so humiliating , they are treating me like a frauder.......a lier...I guess they can include the 3 specialists on that list too.

AVAILABLE

*** update *** buyer contacted me....and I will deliver Tuesday or Wensday in person. ****

Sorry NO longer Available !......:)

24 x 30 inches

Title : Full Force